is it a kind of dream?

*also crosses fingers* You're no amateur anymore, you've been down this motherhood road before, so go you for being prepared! I think a doula is a very good idea (if a pricey one! Yeesh!). Great to have someone along who will be on your side. Sounds to me like the only thing crappy hospitals do well is hijacking people's bodies and scaring them into obedience. Be a squeaky wheel. What a terrible, stressful and scary way to welcome a new life!